regret.

 

 have you ever made a decision and after time found yourself in a world of regret? 

i wonder why i let fear stand in my way.

it's a feeling that's held me back.

i want to kick fear in the ass. make it go away.

instead, i let it control me.

i feel pressure from my surroundings.

i please people. 

i am practical. not daring. or adventurous.

decisions are made. 

there is a feeling of relief.

and feelings of disappointment.

my comfort zone is never left.

months later, here i am.

in a place that is safe.

ordinary. 

i feel like i lost something that could have been.

something good.

a major "what if" that will follow me forever.